8/30/16
Dear A,A year ago today was last year's Rutabaga Fest. The day I first broke your trust. I've apologized countless times for it, and I still regret what happened that day. I asked for support when I shouldn't have had to, I craved attention that I didn't deserve, and I seriously hurt our friendship in the process.
You paid heed to me at first, supported me, listened to my petty problems, but eventually you realized that I was just being selfish and was only trying to get you to pay attention to me. So you told me I needed to figure things out myself, and then avoided me for awhile.
To be honest, that broke my heart. I thought you were doing it because you didn't care about me, or because I wasn't good enough, and I cried so many times over it all, even though that wasn't true. You avoided me because you did care, and you knew that the only way to get me to see where I had gone wrong was to take drastic measures.
Then, something amazing happened. I realized that I couldn't keep asking for your help and being needy, because that wasn't going to earn your trust back. And I wanted you to trust me more than I wanted your attention. So I started following your advice, figuring out my problems on my own, and slowly but surely, I pulled the pieces of myself back together and came out of it a better person. And our friendship has improved drastically because of that.
So thank you. Even though it wasn't fun, all of your encouragement and tough love helped me overcome some of my biggest problems, and did a great deal to prepare me for the future. And I am immensely grateful for that.
Sincerely,
Rosetail
